This journey has been such a roller coaster ride so I had to make that the title of this entry!! Many of you have been asking for an update so here it goes...
We boarded this ride and announced that about a month ago our book was put in, the reason for putting our book in before I was done with this semester in college was because we had gotten a call about a mom that was due at the beginning of June. Our social worker in NC thought she would be interested in seeing our family book, so after much prayer, we decided it was time to put our book in.
The roller coaster started its ascent.
We were called 2 weeks later with the news that the mom had chosen us and we were thrilled that we had gotten "the call" that we would be bringing home our little boy. I cannot describe how it felt getting that call and knowing that God had chosen the little guy that we would be taking home to join our family.
3 hours later the roller coaster went whirling around a turn.
Our social worker emailed us that the birth mom would like to talk to us on the phone, but she was also wanting to talk to another family on the phone too. We were a little disappointed, we weren't sure how to feel about that. What should we say? What would her voice sound like? Would the other couple sound better than us? Sydney coached us on how to talk on the phone and that we had to speak nice!! We waited to hear back about what time and day would work to talk to her and we went over and over what questions she would have for us and what questions we had for her in our heads. The girls anxiously waited too, asking again and again if today was the day we would talk to the "mommy".
Then the roller coaster went whipping full speed down the track.
A week later we got a call from our social worker, expecting to hear the time and date of our phone call we were surprised and numb to the response of "the birth mom has decided to parent." We were shocked and disappointed...we felt an odd feeling that is so hard to explain. We were thankful she had decided sooner than later to decide to parent and that this little boy would be able to stay with his birth mommy. But we also felt a weird feeling that we could not put into words. It was almost a feeling of loss. Through this journey we have felt so many emotions that are so unexpected and hard to describe and this was just another one of those emotions, big time!!
So where are we now...we are back where we were when we put our book in,
...praying and waiting...
Praying that God will give us strength to get through this and be able to work through the emotions and feelings of this journey and also waiting
...waiting again for that call...maybe the call that will be our son waiting for us to take him home.
God help us be patient and wait upon you!
